IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE

by Lorielaine Jiselle Catimpo Santos
(Metro Manila, Philippines)

I used that title because my life is like in the middle of nowhere at this point. I am in third year college, taking up Hospitality Management in a very prestigious school here in the Philippines. I am supposed to graduate this October 2010 but I have been failing all my units for three consecutive terms already. Day by day realizations came. I don't know what I want in life. I know a bit of each and everything that's why I like almost everything. I like art, music, literature, food, fashion, sports. I am a swimmer and a singer. My father enrolled me to several different summer workshops when I was younger; probably that's why I'm having a hard time right now. I won't be enrolling for the next term because I just want to stop spending money and put it into waste. Everything that's happening these past few months have been time-wasting, money-wasting, emotionally and physically draining. I will be on LOA (leave on absence) and spend my time figuring out what I want while making some money for myself. I remembered when we were in high school we used to do these multiple intelligence tests. So I've decided to quiz myself once again and the results always turned out that I am word-smart and "me"-smart. Then after getting the results I Googled what careers are related to these intelligences so there I have a list of what I might wanna study that I really want and will really finish and see myself after twenty years doing that. I'm still not sure about what I want because that list is still pretty unclassified for me. Help me! I have three months!